Saturday, November 16, 2013

A Day Out

The other day, a local salon put on a small event that we attended.  Was something to do on a Saturday and the weather was superb.  So, took a friend along w/ her daughter and we all headed out to the event.

Sofie enjoying the balloons.

Sofie w/ a dog face painting.

Nik was thrilled he got an Angry Bird face painting.

Pure Alyona face. LOL.   Sure she'll love this on here.

Thought this was cute of Ms. Summer in pigtails.  Kept messing w/ the balloons so we tied them to her pig tails.  Hey, we're problem solvers in this house.

Nik riding the horse.

This and another picture of house guest were two of my favorites from this event.  Sofie loved the horses to be sure.  They all went on twice and then played other games and such.

Reni showing off her cupcake face painting.

Irina out and about.  Was a cute little set up they did here and such a sunny day.

Alyona getting her hair done.  Sofie watching her big sis waiting for her turn.

My baby is losing that baby face so fast and growing up into a preschooler.  She may possibly be going to preschool some this next semester.  Time will tell.  

This is Summer.  Almost always smiles.  It was so nice to go out with a friend and her daughter.  Such a pleasant outing.  And, her daughter even won one of the door prizes!  We all had a really good time before heading home that day.  Enjoyable to be sure. 

Need to get back to life

with so much going on in our lives, I need to get back to blogging and try to pull things together after such a devastating loss to our family.  I have a lot to say but for now, need to slowly get things back on track.  I will take things one day at a time as that is all I can do.  So, today.  Warren went to work.  Usually doesn't work on weekends but it was an outage weekend and had to go in.  Stinks b/c he is also fighting a nasty cold.  His lungs work a little differently than most so we watch.  When he was a teenager, he was accidentally crop dusted on a field.  Seems to have had some lifelong lasting effects.  Warren is taking a nap. 

Today, we got up and did our Saturday cleaning.  Yana went to a Raiders meet w/ the ROTC.  They came in 2nd.  Wahoo!!  Rest of the day, we simply hung out at home for a change.  Kids played w/ friends and Nik & Summer were invited to a friend's house.  That was exciting b/c that does NOT happen often at all.  As in not hardly ever.  So, that was really great to witness today.

Nik, Summer and Sofie were playing outside earlier.

Summer is explaining just what exactly Sofie did to her 'flowers.'

Sofie pretending not to have done anything wrong & giving me that look.

Camera hog Nik could careless what is going on around him.  Summer, well, Summer is still pretty ticked off her sister knocked down the flowers she planted. BTW, the stick in front of Nik is a 'flower.'  They planted flowers all over the yard so I had a yard full of sticks sticking straight up.  Hey, they're being creative, right?

She's something else.  That look is the look of I think I got away w/ something.  She is dirty.  They played in my potting soil.  Why she put on a white shirt to play, well, you just have to wonder.

Nik came in and made me take a picture of him. He is so proud that he can now make Ramen Noodles.  He told me he's big now.  LOL.  Yep, preparing him for college folks.  

Well, Alex is spending the night elsewhere as is Bojan.  Rest are here.  Grilled chicken, baked potatoes, and broccoli.   Late, late dinner b/c frankly we started our day late anyhow might as well continue w/ it.  Kids have been watching a documentary on Primordial Dwarfism.  Why?  No idea.  They also watched Dennis the Menace Christmas earlier.  House got cleaned up today and now we'll probably just all have a late dinner, pick a nice movie out and relax.  It was nice not having to be somewhere for a change.  

Lots of upcoming events soon including two more surgeries for this household.  Thanksgiving is here this year for any and all who may want to come.  Would love to have visitors.  We just could not do it alone this year.  Our family doesn't feel complete any more and having friends new and old around will help I do believe.  So far, one other family is coming over.  If you are interested in Thanksgiving here, come on over.  Let me know.  Trying to make preparations now.  Asking for others to bring a dish to share if they come.  Think it will be a lot of fun.  I do.  

We had an unexpected visitor today.  Kyle from over 2 years ago stopped by to see us again!  Very cool.  He stayed with us one summer before moving onto college.  Great when visitors come back.  We've had several guests over the years and nice to see how they've done.  Kids enjoyed it as did I.  Just wished he could have stayed longer.  Maybe next time.  So, that was our day.  I needed to start somewhere on this blog so that is what I did.  Now, in the groove again.  So, do I blog some more or watch a movie w/ the family?  The family is most likely going to win out on that one.  LOL.  More soon, I promise.  I had just needed some time off is all. 

Monday, November 11, 2013

What I Wouldn't Give

What I Wouldn't Give

What I wouldn't give for one more day,
just to have you stay.

What I wouldn't give to see your face,
to see all that amazing grace.

What I wouldn't give for one more touch,
to let you know I love you that much.

What I wouldn't give for one more kiss,
to see what I truly do miss.

What I wouldn't give for just you.
If you could only know I love you too.

What I wouldn't give to fill my heart.
Oh God, why'd they tear us apart!

What I wouldn't give to stop your sisters' tears,
and give you peace for all your fears.

What I wouldn't give to let you know,
My love for you will always grow.

Yes, what I wouldn't give for just one more day,
For you to tell me you can always stay.

What I wouldn't give for you to be here?
Why everything I have my dear.

Written from a Mom's broken heart.  For those unaware, houseguest has left us yet again.  This time, forever.  Devastation doesn't even begin to describe our emotional pain our family is feeling.  This all transpired yesterday and is why the blog has been so quiet.  What I wrote above is just something I felt this morning.  Yes, I know I am definitely not a poet.  LOL.  I had to express something though.  Our family will need time and space to grieve  a loss.  We are beyond deeply saddened by this turn of events.  It's a pain so deep, so real, you just can't describe it unless you live though it.  A pain that truly will last forever.  Never will we forget our youngest.  She fit in SO well with this family.  For one time, we truly felt complete as a family, everyone had their place and the love was great.  Last two times she left, it never ever felt right again till she came back.  So safe to assume it will never ever feel right for the rest of our lives.  We are trying to come to terms with it all.  The why part is so hard b/c we really have no answers.  

Right now, we must focus on our lives and our kids at home.  We have had wonderful friends come to help us out w/ multiple grieving children.  We have a friend sending a care package to help get their minds off things.  People taking them places.  A dear friend brought us a meal last night.  We are very thankful and blessed to have such great support.  With that said, we will all get through this.  But someone having to grieve the loss of the same child three times in a year is more than some of us can bear right now.  To say we miss her would be a grave understatement.  We will always, always love her.  Thank you for your understanding during this difficult time.